There's a reason for your sad life

It's almost 4 am. I have been up for about an hour. Are we going to start this again? I go through these phases of not sleeping. It will last for 3 or 4 days and then go away. What's up with that? I was reading a dive magazine before I went to sleep and was having a very pleasant dream of diving in Belize. Nothing traumatic happened during the dive, it was peaceful and beautiful. When it was over, I woke up. Dive over! Time to get up now! Damn.

My friend's comment in my previous post got me thinking about one of my most humiliating moments. When I was 16, for some bizarre reason, my mother decided to read the lyrics written on the album cover of Berlin's "Pleasure Victim". She particularly enjoyed the "Sex (I'm a...)" lyrics. I'm sure she was convinced that is what lead me down the path of slutty behaviour.

I don't remember how I ended up in the car, but I do remember sitting in the parking lot at Zayre*s, crying and telling my mother I was not going into the store with her. She was yelling all sorts of crazy things about how Zayre*s should not be selling such smut, let alone to teenagers! And that I should act like an adult and go in there and tell them I want my money back for this filth! But mom...I don't have a problem with it. You do. And it's Terri Nunn's fucked up vision - not mine! I just enjoy the music.

She finally left me in the car and went in. I wish I knew what all was said in the store, but I do know she raised holy hell with them. Now remember, this is about a year before that crazy biznotch, Tipper Gore, started her fascist music censorship PMRC bull-dooky. (Thank god my mom never read any Prince lyrics)

Well Zayre*s stood their ground and refused to take the album back. My mom came out of the store - fuming. When she saw me looking at her and realised that I had sort of "won" because she still had the album in her hand, she took it out, broke it in half and threw it in the garbage can. I lost my album, but I still had a secret smirk, because I knew the people in the store thought she was certifiable and hopefully told her so.

Needless to say, I ended up with another Pleasure Victim album. I don't remember when or how, so I don't know how long I went without it. Most likely I bought a replacement the following weekend at the mall. I was nothing if not defiant as a child. In fact, if it had existed back then, I'm sure I would have been labeled as having ODD. Well of course it existed, we just didn't have a label for it. Now we have to label everything.

Oh how I miss the good old days of non-medicated kids and metal chain swings.

I am going to try to get some sleep now and wait for the snow. It's the 2nd day of spring and they are predicting anywhere from 1 to 2000 inches of snow. I will believe it when I see more than dust out there. I am ready for spring, but I can enjoy one more day of being "snowed in". I love it. I have phones from 1-3, but if the weather is truly bad, Matthew will be taking the Jeep to work and I don't feel safe driving his old pick-up truck in the snow and ice, so I will be staying home. Snow day!

I just checked the weather channel web page and it looks like the snow is on top of us now. I don't see anything outside though.